Teddy is growing up so much! There are times when I just look at him and I swear he got bigger while I blinked. I tell him to "slow down" and "don't look so grown up" all the time now. He is putting together a lot of two and three word sentences now and talking in first person more, exploring emotions such as "I like it!" The other night I had to put 4t pajamas on him, so I'm going to have to try out a few things for the fall. I was trying on a few 3t pants that he had and they were too tight around the waist, same with some of the shorts he has, but not all. It probably varies by brand or something.
Doug has started working at his store in Staunton. Right now his schedule is 2pm-12am Wed-Friday and then 7am-5 pm Saturday and Sunday, he has Monday and Tuesday off. He gets off pretty close to his set time, which is a huge difference from Applebee's. He hasn't been called in for an extra shift or anything yet. It will happen at some point but so far things are going very smooth there. He gets more time with us and the only big downside is that getting home late on Friday and going in early on Saturday and then going straight to church makes for a very long day.
I started watching a little boy two days a week. He's such a sweetie and for the most part more low maintence than Teddy. He's 14 months, so it's a really good compatible age for Teddy. They love each other! Teddy asks about him when he's not around, R follows Teddy around. They have opposite nap schedules which is actually great because I don't have to worry about having both of them the whole day, can give Teddy some individual time, R some individual time and no one wakes the other one up. And Doug is home for part of the day so he spends some time with Teddy then too. And it means we can take both of them to the playground and Doug can chase after Teddy. I think it will be awhile before I can do both of them alone there, Teddy just isn't at the age yet where I can take my eyes off of him or trust him to listen. Totally normal for this age of course. I'm so glad that Teddy has a little friend to play with! That's the main reason I'm doing this. Whenever I ask someone else I know with kids I get brushed off. I understand they're busy and so am I, but I do know that they meet up with others so what am I supposed to think but that they'd rather not do it with me/Teddy?
Planning baby #2 is under way. August was a wash because Doug was gone so much. But, I think I actually ovulated on my own for the first time ever. But now I've had two negative tests and no period so I don't know what to think. Having PCOS, I'm used to not having a period but I was so hopeful that since I had so many signs of ovulation that my body was going to work right on it's own. Right now I change my mind pretty often about when to call the OB about Clomid treatments again. We obviously can't be successful on our own if I'm not ovulating and since I didn't shed a lining I don't expect to ovulate this month anyway...or any other month until that happens, hence the need for medication too. Logistically, waiting until January would probably be best just because Doug just started this job, I want to lose some more weight, all the co-pays involved with the procedures and appointments and we will hopefully have our own house again at the end of next year which would put us with a young infant or newborn versus a potentially mobile child and moving.
But I also have conflicting feelings about using medication anyway. I'm really believing that God is going to heal my body some day and I'll conceive on my own. I know He has his own timing and it's perfect and that if it wasn't in His will we wouldn't be able to conceive even with medication. But I worry that doing that is a form of doubting His promise. Then again, when we're sick in other ways we take medicine. So for now we're keeping it low stress but eventually I'm going to have to commit to one thought or the other.
And while I'm typing all of this I am supposed to be thinking more about Teddy's second birthday party! I'm still in denial though so I'm not getting very far!!
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